Lies

I hate lies,
But I could never understand why?
I myself lie so many times,
Few to my parents,
A lot to my friends,
A few for big reasons,
A lot for smaller reasons,
One after another,
I kept my lies alive,
And yet I hate lies,
But I could never understand why?
One day she lied to me,
For no big reason,
I couldn’t understand why?
There was no need of her lying to me,
If once she would have said,
I wouldn’t have done it,
For I loved her for being true,
She knew it,
But she did not say me directly
Instead she lied to me.
It stuck in my heart like an arrow,
It hurted me,
I never expected she would do this to me,
I could get no reason for it,
It felt as if my trust was shattered..
Shattered into pieces,
This would never be as before again,
Yet it did not matter to her.
There were so many questions popping up in my mind every minute,
I wanted to ask her all,
But was it correct to ask her anything,
Was it anymore needed?
She would have frowned on me asking anything,
Or she would have liked it?
She would answer to me?
Or she would leave me forever?
I could understand nothing,
She had already lied to me,
She could lie again,
And I would be fooled again,
And even if she doesn’t
Would I believe her?
Wouldn’t her truth be doubted by me?
My trust was dwindling,
Was I being betrayed?
I wanted to believe her every second,
But I was unable to believe anything from her,
I could see how a small lie had shattered all my life,
And now I can understand why I hate lies!